So Long 2018, Hello Freedom…and 2019

2018 may have been MY most challenging year yet, at least mentally. Losing a job, especially for someone like me, is like losing yourself. I felt like a hiker on Mt Everest in the middle of a white out. I was paralyzed. And even once the white out passed, I still had a long way up or down. It was all so overwhelming, and definitely fight or flight.

My big lessons for 2018: 1, when in a fight or flight situation, fighting just means not leaving. It doesn’t have to be valiant or heroic. Just a conscious choice to not give up. 2, I have ridiculous expectations of myself. No one else can beat me up quite like I do myself. I need to forgive myself and cut myself a little slack. 3, John loves me unconditionally. I don’t want to transverse this life without him. He grounds me. There’s a reason we’ve made it 25 years.

What were your lessons from 2018?

My word for 2019: freedom.

In 2018, I had to cast away all of my former labels.

In 2019, I am FREE to be ME.

I will be FREE of limitations.

I will be FREE of excuses.

I will be FREE from expectations.

What will your word be?

Stay tuned in 2019! More tarot card readings for sure. You’ll see some poetry, more art, and definitely more random acts of kindness. My goal in 2019 is to help my husband grow #daily180, so expect to see lots of acts of kindness.

1 Comment

  1. Your first paragraph reminded me of my terrible year. I am left not working at all and trying to find something to do with myself. I never thought I’d end up like this
    Thats for sure. Hoping for a better 2019!
    So glad you are doing better- just don’t burn yourself out.


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